My love life

People who knows me well KNOWS that once im in love...im in love..and there'd be no one else except that person that i love in my life... no matter how bad i am...there wud always be just one man in my heart...

Now, as i mentioned before, i broke up with my ex (apparently!) and found myself another man... ok, before u call me a b$%ch, a player, or anything in that category, i have one thing to say... I REALLY DONT CARE WAT U THINK!!!=p

Basically, things did not work out between me n him...im not sure wat happened between us, but everything just changed...it was not the same anymore, and i felt that we were not going anywhere with our relationship. he has everything i looked for in a man...but that everything means nothing if our path is heading to a very vague direction...I had nothing to hold on to... We are in good terms, tho! =)

The new guy in my life, is not so new...i've known him since he was a kid! haha!! but we only started to really know each other this year... i didnt realise i fell for him until one day, when we went out and i felt really comfortable around him!!we talk about anything, EVERYTHING!! the fact that he's my friend made it easier for us to connect with each other, and i felt that we could make a real good team together!!

I dont wanna talk much about him...i dont wanna jinx it.. but my point is, he takes me to a different level (emotionally, duh!)...=) im happy...

Its December 2010!!

OMG!!!From April, and now its December??where was i for the past 8 months?! Ok, quick update :

1. I passed my exam (the one in May) with an 'Okay' result...1 A, 2 Bs, 2 Cs

2. I got the scholarship to France for the 1 month Summer School (28th July - 2nd August)...it was GREATTTT!!!I got the BEST result in my class...and i spoke a whole lotsa FRENCH!! (on top of it, it was my THIRD time in FRANCE!!n i still LOVE it there!!)

3. I started my 2nd year of uni in August, and the modules are ALL VERY VERY HARD!!I pretty much sucked at all of em..=(

4. Me and Duan broke up... =(

5. Im currently with Adeq =) =) =)

6. My Exams were REALLY REALLY REALLY hard, i have a bad feeling about my result...=((

7. Im still active with my Netball...But i gained 5kg.. =?

8. I lost Milo, my very dearest cat when i was in France.. ="""(

9. I still sing, but not so much, due to my study...=(

10. I have not got a decent vacation (away from the country) since January!! =((

I will talk about some of these points soon!!

Oxygen for the brain

I am doing this last assignment due this thursday. I am still working on it, its not easy. On top of that, I also need to do a personal statement for a summer school in France...my chance of getting it? 30% kali... 

Ok, so the modules so far. I am still not satisfied over us having to take ICT..but I have no choice but to study this module!I am most concern with Business Statistics. Its just SO hard!!! For Corporate Communication, I found that we will be required to do 4 essays during the exams. 4 essays in 2 hours...i wonder how i will be able to do it. French, it is, indeed, getting super hard!! 

Ok, ok...i need to focus on my assignment now. tata!!

2 more weeks

to what? EXAM!!

Yes, m i panicking? m i? u think i am? well, no i am not. Ofcourse I AM!! I need to review my revision sessions. I will stop my netball activities starting next week (help me god!) and start to go intensive 24-hr sleep depriving mode!! wuuuhuuuuu!! I just hope i can do this. 

I dont know what else to say now..my brain doesn't wrk well during the day..apparently. Maybe il c u tonite. 

Is this even normal?

Gosh, I really am not the kind that complains a lot. But i just cannot help it.. Here's the thing, i know uni life is all about time management. But don't u think its impossible to manage time when the workload is just so unreasonable? U see, our exam will be in less than a month. And yet, our lecturers keep on dumping assignments for us. On top of that, we have to sit for tests to fulfill the 50% to 60% coursework grades. Just for the month of April alone!! As of now, I have completed 2 assignments (due for April), and I have 4 more to do!! I just do not understand how they expect we could really score for our assignments AND exams when the time given is just so..urgh..i don't know!! I really want to score for this semester!!i really do..but it seems to me that they are making it impossible!! I dont have problems going beyond my comfort zone, in fact, I love it, its a challenge for me...mentally and physically!! BUT not this time. This is waaaayyy beyond my uncomfortable zone. Really, its closer to my insanity level. I hope i stay sane. 

Ok, so some of you may wonder, why am i spending time whining about this when i can just focus on completing my assignments? the answer is, I have been spending 12 hours in front of my laptop now. 12 hours. I need this break. 

To be honest, I am now questioning the credibility of the core modules for this semester. I am. The only thing i have left with me right now is my unused business mind. I miss work so much...i miss doing roadshows!!i miss giving talks!!i miss dealing with clients!!i miss my Public Relations activities!!i miss dealing with people!!i miss my office!!i miss everything!! But this is what my office needed me to do..to take up this degree..to be able to handle more work challenges..SO, it is this that motivates me to strive the hardest for success.. (even to a point of impossibility)

I love my job. 

empty sunday

i got up at 12 plus. I had fun last night with the Net7 gurls. We had dinner at a sushi restaurant, and then took a walk along the gadong complex. The next thing we knew we were in a small karaoke box singing Britney's Hit Me Baby (one more time)...ahahahaha!!it was fun! then a few of us chilled at one of the cafes in the area talkin about, whatelse, Netball!! siukkk!!

Today, i spent my time doing laundry, and pampering my cats. Oh, i have a new kitten (I already have 2 young cats I bought last year)!! I found him/her (i dunno the gender yet, its hard to tell) yesterday near our garage. It was really small and meowing...but at that time, it refused to be touched..so i left it there and i learned that my brother-in-law put it in a box and kept in a small cage behind our house. I told mum to let it in the house, we have crazy dogs roaming around at night hunting and killing cats!!Anyway, today, i went to the kitchen to look at it. It was meowing so much!! I got it out of the cage and began to pet it..now, it no longer refuses me!yay!!i tamed the kitten!! The problem is, my other cats do not like it. They keep on hissing it off..so kesian! After doing laundry and playing with my cats, I went to Tutong for a 'doa selamat' function for my brother. He got a flat in Tutong, he just moved in. I spent around an hour there, and then went back to Bandar to have a drink with one of my bestfriends. 

I am supposed to see my babe tonight...and I am still waiting for him. I miss him so much. We did not see each other yesterday as we were both busy ( I got netball and gathering, he got something else at the studio). He planned to take me with him to the studio, and I planned to take him with me to the gathering...the thing is, we did not plan it together, that's why we ended up not seeing each other!!urgh! And today, I was supposed to spend time with him..I mean, tonight. He went fishing earlier with his brothers, and said that he will see me after taking a short nap. He was tired, I know. He went back really late lastnight and got up early to go fishing. But I miss him so much. I miss him soooooo badly!!! =(

It is for this reason that I say my sunday is empty. Because we'r not spending our time together. I miss him.. i miss u, Duan. 

Netball and Me

its 3.30am...I am actually doing my french assignment that i need to submit tomorrow (later!!) before 5pm. I should have done this earlier today, after our Francophine Cinema Workshop..but..i got lazy. well, not exactly lazy, but tired. I slept at 4am the night before because i had to complete my other assignment to be submitted earlier today. I got up at 8am to attend the workshop (which was SUPER FUN!!) and got back home at almost 2pm. I lied in bed..took a short nap, got up at 430pm to get ready for my netball practise!!yay!! i got home at almost 11pm, took my shower, and here i am since 3 hours ago trying to finish up my assignment! Its crazy, right? like, what in the world am i thinking to spend that much time on netball when i know i haven't started on my assignment?!!! i tell u. I am a netball addict now. 

Since January this year, I haveparticipated in 4 Netball tournaments!! One for my office, one for mixed (male+female), and two for my club (Net7). So, yeah, that's like 1 tournament per month!! I cant help it!!its FUN!!!I dont care that I am a crappy shooter, I just love it!! And to make things more interesting, i got myself a netball post!!here!!at home!!And, and, I am also SO into running!!to put it more correctly, i am back to running..im doing 5km per day!!yeaaayyy!! (but slower pace..hehehe!)

Ok now, I have to go back to completing mes devoirs! 

Au revoir!! Bonne nuit!! Je t'aime!! =) 

its April 2010!!

Bonsoir!!

I have to admit that i am not a diligent blogger!!I am always amazed whenever i visit my page..i dont know why. I guess its the fact that i DO have a blogspot!! i seem to always forget this. hmmh. Ok, anyway, let me update you with the happenings in my life. Since October last year (i.e. when i turned 30, yikess!!) i pretty much spent my time studying. My result from the 1st semester was ok...I got 1 A+, 2 As 1 B+ and 1 C. Im grateful!!but, dammit, i wish it was a straight As result! ahaha!

I am in my 2nd semester now. The modules I am taking is ICT, Corporate Communication, Business Statistics, MIB and French. Yes, I am still taking french..somehow, it is the only subject that i am very interested on!! I tend to hate it when the class ends!! As for the other modules, I think this time they are harder. I really, seriously, do not know what to expect for the exams. And, maybe its just me, but I just dont see why we need to learn ICT. I mean, I thought we'd be learning something like, words, data processing, excel and all that. But instead, we are learning all the technical terms!!I hv been working for 6-7 yrs, and I have never been bothered by how many gigs, or how many kilobytes, or if the printer is dot matrix, or even the components inside the computer!! why do we need to know what a bus is? If ever we have a problem on this, I can just google about it!! I dont know..I just seriously do not think that this module is suitable for us. I was expecting something businesslike!! for example, how to use the powerpoint (of course, i already know how to use this!). urgh..ITS JUST TOO TECHNICAL!! I dont want to be a computer engineer!!i just want to be able to apply what i learn!!we have the IT department to worry about this things. URGH, again!!

As for the Corporate Communication module, some topics are relevant. I dont mean to sound nasty, but my post is the Assistant Manager of the Corporate Communication Department for 5 years in the organisation that I work with, and let me tell you one thing, it is about being the eye, the ear, the mouth and also the image of an organisation. To protect and enhance professional relationships with other organisations! Perhaps they should review the topics under this module. For example, in building relationships, in creating press releases and press conference, in promoting the organisation (corporate social responsibility), in organising events and campaigns, and all sorts of things!! I love my job and so far, i dont see that what they are teaching us under this topic is anything new. 

Business Statistics, I have no further comment except that its too hard and challenging (its supposed to be this way, i know! and i am not whining!)

U know what, actually i have 5 assignments that i need to submit very soon. FIVE!!! Its too much!! And i thought that 1st semester was torturous..i was SO wrong!!

I am going to bed now. I am sleepy. good nite. 

Bonne nuit. Au revoir!!